Faith > Sense

*Disclaimer: I actually wrote this blog about a month ago... For some reason I never got around to posting it, but maybe I wasn't supposed to then. Maybe God knew it was for this time all along. *

Isn’t it funny how you find yourself learning from a situation you’re supposed to be teaching? Every Sunday night I lead High School Senior girls with my amazing co-leader Candace. Well this week was different, Candace gets married on Thursday so her bridesmaids surprised her for a little getaway night on Sunday which would leave me alone with the girls. Dun dun duh! I’m totally joking, they are not THAT bad. But man, the LORD had Candace away for a reason, and had me alone with them for a reason. I found myself in the sermon, holding back tears. What sermon was supposed to be catered for the 230+ high school students had this 24 year old on the edge of her seat….

How do you stay faithful and do as God calls you even when it’s confusing?


How am I supposed to teach my girls the very thing I’m trying to teach myself?

Do I pretend to have it all together, talk about the times when the LORD has showed up in the past, or do I be brutally honest with them? Do I share the very moment I’m in with them?

When I asked this question to them, to my surprise they didn’t even know the meaning of this question.

“Does this mean choosing not to sin?”

It got me thinking, do I even understand the meaning of this question?

What does staying faithful even mean?

Does it mean never doubting? Never being afraid or discouraged? Does it mean saying YES from the very start? Does that mean never having to talk yourself into something? Does that mean never wrestling with God?


When I’m faced with so many questions like this, I go to the only one who can and has answered these questions. God.

How many people in the bible were considered faithful but faced doubt, fear, discouragement, a wrestle, a questioning spirit?


Moses, Joshua, Abraham, Sarah, Jacob, Elijah, Gideon, Peter, Paul shall I continue? But yet these people all seem to be considered faithful?

Because at the end of the day DESPITE their doubt, fear, discouragement, and the wrestle, they CHOOSE to remain in TRUTH of who God IS and not held captive in the _____ of their situation.

Being Faithful is an option.

Having faith is not.

Faith has been freely given to you, choosing to utilize it is up to you.

Romans 12:3 (emphasis added) “For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you.”

Eph 2:8 (emphasis added) “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—

When you realize that being faithful already deals with confusion it simplifies that question down to

How do you stay faithful and do as God calls you?

And we already answered that being faithful is despite doubt, fear, discouragement, and the wrestle, we choose to remain in TRUTH of who God IS and not being held captive in the _____ of our situations.

So now the question is:

HOW DO YOU -stay faithful and- DO AS GOD CALLS YOU -even when it’s confusing?-

Well before we can know how to do as God calls you, first we need to know how God calls you.

We know in Romans 12 Paul says we’ve been called and set apart but first:

“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.”

What does it mean to be transformed by the renewing of your mind?

I don’t know if your parents ever hounded you with the saying. “You are who you hang out with”

No? Okay, let’s pretend they did; and gasp, to my surprise they were right!

I’ll never forget the day I started saying “Wild” in different conversations because my roommate at the time said it ALL THE TIME, (sorry Zoey).

Or the fact that I say my “O’s” with a Minnesota accent to now my friends in Arizona, who might I add, have never been there, say their “O’s” with a Minnesota accent as well.

Well, in the same way, if you hang out with the LORD, your language will change. You’ll find yourself speaking different, acting different, and thinking different. Your mind will be transformed by the Holy Spirit coming in and cleaning house.

Philippians 4:8: “Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me- put into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”

I’ll never forget the day I started crying at church after bearing witness to something the LORD was doing. I was talking to Lindsay, and I was laughing, “How is it that I’m so happy over something that has no effect on me?” Her response still echoes in my head, “It’s amazing how surprised we get when the Holy Spirit actually comes in and renews our mind, even when we’re the ones who asked for it.”


When you spend time in bible you will learn the voice of God, and when you learn the voice of God you’ll be able to decipher what the LORD is asking of you.

Like my parents said you are who you hang out with.

So basically the answer is within the question… 

How do you stay faithful and do as God calls you even when it is confusing?

Well, you do it by choosing to trust, despite everything inside you naturally wanting to question and doubt. Rest in who you know the LORD is. Knowing the LORD; by staying in queue with him, in constant communication with him, knowing his voice, knowing the truth He speaks over you and your situation, and knowing the LORD is strong enough, powerful enough, and perfect to overcome ANYTHING. So despite the confusion, KNOW the LORD is NOT a God of confusion, he has given you peace, choose to let that peace rain down over you. Fight the good fight. Knowing it has nothing to do with your situation and everything to do with your God.

God bless friends!



Leave Everything, Follow Me


Recapping a sermon that really made me think. Am I really chasing after the LORD? Sometimes it can be confusing to walk away from the very blessing God just provided, or the very miracle He just preformed... But if Jesus were to say leave it all, would you? Would you really?

Check out the amazing sermon by Steven Furtick here:



The Middle


Ever feel stuck in the middle of major change? Whether it's work, family, relationships, church? Everyone should be raising their hands. I'm raising both. I've been blessed with the season of everything happening at once. My entire world turned on its head and every aspect of my life that once was stable is now all changing. 

Frustration has been a key word. Frustration at the peace I feel in such a confusing time. Frustration over my community dispersing even though I know the hand of God is working in their lives and circumstances. Frustration in being called into a season of unfamiliarity and confusion YET again.

But lately God has been changing my frustration into expectation.

Expectation that the LORD has never forsaken me or left me and never will. Expectation that the LORD will protect, provide and prepare me. Expectation that His abundance will cover me, that His grace is enough for me. Expectation that this is THE MIDDLE NOT THE END. 

"And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns." Philippians 1:6

The good stuff happens in the middle. God's presence is in the process, in the middle, common middle, mundane middle, the miracle is in the middle. 


Luke 23:40 But the other criminal rebuked him. “Don’t you fear God,” he said, “since you are under the same sentence? 41 We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve. But this man has done nothing wrong.”

42 Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.”

43 Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.”

The same grace that covered the gap from where I was to where I am is the same grace that will cover the gap from where I am to where I want to be. The gap that makes me grateful and a gap that makes me grow. It's all in the middle. 

I press towards the mark, I will not quit in the middle. And maybe, just maybe it's not about getting me out of the middle, but letting God in. 

Friend's I just want to encourage you. If you find yourself in the middle of any situation in your life currently, take courage, the LORD your God is already in it, already ahead of it, and it's in the middle that His glory gets revealed. 

Stop running from what God saved you out of and start running toward what God saved you for. Turn your frustration into expectation. Turn your fear into faith. Turn your disappointments into praise. Turn your questions into peace that surpasses all understanding. Turn your gaze from your situation to the King who has overcome it all. 

Find the joy in the middle. 

Because the middle is where is all begins.

Cheers to the middle my friends, you are not alone. 



The Good Stuff?


Ever feel like your'e just trying to do good?

A couple weeks ago, I invited some friends over for dinner and I was so excited to serve them and make them food in my new condo and be in their presence; good company. I went to the grocery store with what little money I had and bought the food I knew they could eat. I wrapped my evening plans around their arrival, and to my surprise they had to cancel. 

It turned my mood so upside down I couldn't even enjoy the company of my friend who was in town visiting. All I could think while I was cooking is, why? All I'm trying to do is something good for them? Why would they chose to do something else?

I shared these thoughts with my friend and she said, "There is a lot of things coming to mind right now but the biggest one I hear the Lord saying is, 'I try to do good stuff for you all the time and you chose others all the time.'". 


I just got angry over something I do to the LORD all the time. 

So many times God has sweet plans made for me and invites me in, and I get so preoccupied by whats in front of me I say "Rain Check!"

It's not that my friends bailed on me, because they didn't, I kind of threw the plans on them last minute. It's not that they chose other things that are "more important" than me or what not, they had work they had to get done. I was selfish. I only thought of myself. I twisted my servant heart into an alternative motive to satisfy myself and then I wondered why it not working out shifted my mood so vastly and quickly. 

I wonder how Martha felt when Jesus affirmed that "doing stuff" didn't really matter in comparison to serving Him. 

38 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”

41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:38-42

It is human nature to get distracted and preoccupied, but don't miss the moments when you can sit at the Lords feet and listen.

Have a great week friends.