Ever feel like your'e just trying to do good?
A couple weeks ago, I invited some friends over for dinner and I was so excited to serve them and make them food in my new condo and be in their presence; good company. I went to the grocery store with what little money I had and bought the food I knew they could eat. I wrapped my evening plans around their arrival, and to my surprise they had to cancel.
It turned my mood so upside down I couldn't even enjoy the company of my friend who was in town visiting. All I could think while I was cooking is, why? All I'm trying to do is something good for them? Why would they chose to do something else?
I shared these thoughts with my friend and she said, "There is a lot of things coming to mind right now but the biggest one I hear the Lord saying is, 'I try to do good stuff for you all the time and you chose others all the time.'".
WOAH.
I just got angry over something I do to the LORD all the time.
So many times God has sweet plans made for me and invites me in, and I get so preoccupied by whats in front of me I say "Rain Check!"
It's not that my friends bailed on me, because they didn't, I kind of threw the plans on them last minute. It's not that they chose other things that are "more important" than me or what not, they had work they had to get done. I was selfish. I only thought of myself. I twisted my servant heart into an alternative motive to satisfy myself and then I wondered why it not working out shifted my mood so vastly and quickly.
I wonder how Martha felt when Jesus affirmed that "doing stuff" didn't really matter in comparison to serving Him.
38 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”
41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:38-42
It is human nature to get distracted and preoccupied, but don't miss the moments when you can sit at the Lords feet and listen.
Have a great week friends.